Caution: Everything in One. You've Been Warned!!
This is all a bunch of topics that have been accumulating in my head for a while. I have meant to write about each of these things separately, but now they are just going to all be here. These are my thoughts, and anyone who reads them, be prepared. I am not writing it to make anyone uncomfortable, or to change the way they think about me or anything else. I like being able to share, and if someone does read this, great, but if not, that’s ok. :) Enjoy!
So, I don’t miss pews.
Yup, that’s right, I said it. All this time, I keep saying that I do, but no, it’s a lie. What brought this about, you ask? The most uncomfortable pew I’ve ever sat on, Sunday evening. The service, or actually, concert, was amazing, though. The group was great, and the spirit was so wonderful. So many of their songs were so powerful and touching. My favorite part was the end, though. One of the group members got up after the music, and spoke. It was kind of a mini-sermon, but mostly it was a salvation message. It was really exciting! The only thing was, while I was listening, I was shocked to realize that this was the first salvation message I had heard preached in Shawnee. It made me really sad to think about, because that’s the whole reason! If we aren’t doing our part, as we are supposed to, especially as a church body, to fulfill Christ last instruction, to go into the world and bring them to Him, what is the point? I was really saddened.
It made me realize even more how much I miss Central. I love the people, the youth, the spirit that is there. No matter how hard I try, I will never find another Central. Not that I want to necessarily, because it’s irreplaceable.
It has been a very hard transition the last year or so. I am not the person I was. Most definitely in good ways. God has worked in my life, growing me as a person, but more importantly as a Christian, someone who is concentrated on following HIM. OBU is so very different from home. Not in a bad way, because I love it, and I know that it is where God has called me to be. But it, and even the churches in Shawnee, are quite a change.
I am incredibly thankful that God led me (us) to Calvary. I spent the first semester of school at another church, and I liked it, but it didn’t always feel quite right. I’ve only been attending Calvary for about a month, and that has been very sporadic because of obligations and breaks. But I feel so welcome, and so at peace being there. I can tell that this is where God wants me. I can’t wait until next year (or maybe now) when I can get really involved with the ministry of the church! This morning was an amazing service. I was fighting back tears. But they were all good. So many places nowadays are so afraid to preach the Bible the way it is. They skip around, interpret it strangely, just to make it say what they want. Pastor David mentioned that this morning. Then he went on to preach the best message I’ve heard in Shawnee. I am just so happy right now! -[the only thing that I wonder about is the lack of people going forward.. I know that you can make decisions in the pew, or wherever you are for that matter, but there is something about getting on your knees at the altar, being humbled at the feet of God.. it just feels right to me. It is right]-
When Casey got the call to be the Music Minister at Calvary, I was really excited, not only for him, but I am glad that he can be at a church in Shawnee now, for me as well, because I like the fact that we can go to church together. It seems to me that it is the best way to insure that God is front and center of our relationship, which is (duh) how it should be. This section is going to be a bit about what I think about this --[if you read this, eh, idk. we’ll talk about it if you want, or just read it for what it is and go on]--. "This" being Casey, God, our relationship, and kind of relationships in general. I am unbelievably happy right now. I feel like..no, I’m sure, that this God is saying that this is good. And that is the most important thing, because no matter how much you may like someone, if God says no, the worst thing you can do is to keep pursuing that! All it can do is hurt you, them, and often people around you. And yes, I’ve been connected to this. It hurts. My prayer is that God will bless this, and that we will both concentrate on following Him, and be listening to whatever it is He may say about anything. But it works. I am great. And I *think* he feels the same way. [that’s the vibe I get anyway lol].
Well, I warned you. That’s what has been on my mind lately. And I feel like I’m forgetting things, but maybe I’ll remember them and edit this later to make it more complete. Feedback is optional, I like to hear what people think, but eh, it’s whatever.
Well, I love you all, and I will talk to you later!!
♥ Jaci
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