From September 19, 2007

Bisonette Bible Study Night 1

So, I am completely in awe right now. Tonight was our second night of the bible study, and it was just amazing, and I want to share. We got our study books today, but we aren't starting that until next week. Katie (the leader) wanted tonight to be about growing closer as a group (there are about 8 of us), so that we will feel comfortable later on when we get deeper into the study. When we got there, she gave us papers that had a list of expressions on them. We were to pick 3 that described how we have felt in the last week or so. We then went around and discussed what we picked, and why. It was really enlightening and amazing to get to know more about the other girls. I even learned more about one of my best friends. Well, this is one of the things that I have the most trouble with. I have problems sharing my heart and how I feel with other people. I am very introverted, and like to keep everything inside. I feel like, not only will other people ont understand, but they won't want to bother listening to my problems. What is kind of sad, I don't have the relationship I would like to with God, and I don't turn to Him the way I should either. Well, I had to open up tonight, and it was kind of relieving to be in an environment where I can be comfortable doing that. After that, Katie talked a little about each of the problems we mentioned (and we all had a lot in common), and I could just really feel God's presence moving in our group. I feel completely reawakened right now, and a hunger to grow even more in my relationship with God. I feel, now more than ever, that this is where God wants me to be, and I will find Him here. If you read this, and have any questions, feel free to ask me. I would love to share with you!

Edited the next day:
OMGosh! So, after last night, I was pretty pumped. Today, however, I am utterly amazing! As an assignment for my New Testament class, I had to read the gospel of John in one sitting, and it was enthralling! It was like God was opening my eyes to things I had never known before! After I finished, I was just thinking about God's amazing-ness, and I started praying, and I was on my knees for like 20 minutes, just praising God, and it felt awesome! (and btw, that would be totally Bro. Lynn-approved because I'm using it in reference to God. I just feel a whole new depth to my relationship with Him, and a renewing of His peace in my heart/soul. AAAAHHH! (screaming for the joy I feel!) Praise God!!! He is absolutely amazing!